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OKAY IMPORTANT NOTE

i had to change my screen name for aim.

my new screenname is lindsay3dale

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from now on, my lj is

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"I know the human being and the fish can coexist peacefully."
"Rarely is the question asked: Is our children learning?"
"We cannot let terrorists hold this nation hostile or hold our allies hostile."
"I have a different vision of leadership. A leadership is someone who brings people together."
"I glance at the headlines just to kind of get a flavor for what's moving. I rarely read the stories, and get briefed by people who are probably read the news themselves." (September 21, 2003)
"Washington is a town where there's all kinds of allegations. You've heard much of the allegations. And if people have got solid information, please come forward with it. And that would be people inside the information who are the so-called anonymous sources, or people outside the information — outside the administration." (September 30, 2003)
"Will the highways on the Internet become more few?"
"I understand small business growth. I was one."
"It's clearly a budget. It's got a lot of numbers in it."
"The administration I'll bring is a group of men and women who are focused on what's best for America, honest men and women, decent men and women, women who will see service to our country as a great privilege and who will not stain the house."
"There's only one person who hugs the mothers and the widows, the wives and the kids upon the death of their loved one. Others hug but having committed the troops, I've got an additional responsibility to hug and that's me and I know what it's like." [12/13/2002]

and who said all that, but our president george w. bush himself

had some amazing times with lydia and zoe and now im home and i miss them a lot

and i miss zoes wave machine and lydias dust mites and the beach and the ghetto mall and exclaiming ah, life and home! and listening to taking back sunday and starbucks and "well my mom makes more money than yours" and lydias fun friends and i cant remember why i was excited to be home

it was pleasant for like ten minutes but then i went by work and came home and sat on my computer and uhm
nothing
nothing here

but hannah! shes here! we went to sonicccc and hopefully this week will be fantastic, minus the fact that i work tomrorow and i'm off thursday then i work 7 days in a row (ish)

CAFFIENE

tonight, i was in lydias car with cat and gerry and we were driving along. we were all looking up at the same time
and BOOM

a tree of lightning exploded across the sky. i say tree, because it really did look like a tree. it looked like a family tree of some old distinguished southern family that married and produced millions of children. it was the most massive intertwined blanket of lightening i've ever seen in my entire life and it absolutely took my breath away.

amaazing.

im sick of being unhappy but things just keep getting worse and worse and worse and CRASHBOOMBANG everything explodes

this summer sucks
last summer was unbeleivable
if this summer sucks so much, think of how the school year's gonna be!
hell
hell

sorry to leave on such a depressing note
but tomorrow morning i will go to florida
and force myself to be happy
and hopefully things will be pleasant there

hopefully there i wont want to die

she appears composed
so she is, i suppose
who can really tell?
she shows no emotion at all
stares into space like a dead china doll
never gonna know you now but im gonna love you anyhow

i cant fucking wait to go away

mmmm florida

but first!
a good seven hour shift at work
fuck spiderman 2.

i want to throw up
or die
or something

optimism is too goddamn hard
luckily my waves of sadness dont hit much
only when i think about things

i work a lot but i have two days off after tonight and that is good

hannah and kait are back and that makes summer all the more incredible

i like neil young

im going to jacksonville july 1st - 6th to see my lydia and my zoe and to kick a lot of ass

i kind of want to leave and run away and take someone with me and embark upon various crazy adventures in various incredible places like boston and DC and nyc and even california! reading kerouac is infectious. i would like nothing more right now than to go and pick up someone and drive and drive and listen to music and talk until we reached somewhere, anywhere, and we'd stay until we got bored of it and drive somewhere else.

i am much too realistic to get too deep into these fantasies though; i have no money i have a job i have parents i have too many limitations

i got a car today

yeah thats right suckas i sure did

and then i cried. not the silent sobs you choke out when you're trying not to, or trying to be graceful about your tears. not the one or two quiet tears that pierce your eyeballs when you think about something sad, or you miss someone. no, it was nothing graceful or quiet. definitely not. these sobs were the kind you let out when you fight with your parents. the kind that come when you argue with your best friend to the point where you dont have anything to say to each other. the kind when the boy you've been in love with for half a year walks out of your room with nothing more than "i cant take you anymore." the kind where you wait until he leaves before you fall onto your bed, squeeze a pillow and wail and sob and cry and scream. not graceful. not quiet. just release. the kind where after you get the worst out, you pace around your room and tear things up and look out the window and mess with your cd player, just to find something to stop the wallowing in self pity, the melodramatic sobs. the kind where you go downstairs and outside, and sit on a chair on your porch and just breathe. in out in out. inhale exhale.

and then its over.

i miss my best friend.

hmmm.

work last night sucked. apparently quite a few people go to the movies around 9 on a friday night. who would have thought. a lot of my co-workers left right before that, so it was just me and two other people. a guy gave me a hundred dollar bill for one box of hot tamales. thankyouverymuch. i worked until 12 and ended up rambling to tim, my william blount football player-type coworker. i made him my honorary best friend, sorry hannahbaby.

i work again tonight, and it sucks. my uncle is going away tomorrow to basic training in atlanta and then hes fuckin going to IRAQ for a year. he wont be back until next january. its not that im worried hes going to die or anything, but if something were to happen it would suck that i missed my last chance to see him because i had to fill popcorn bags and sell people junior mints.

i've never been one for supporting the war, and now that my uncle's over there it just makes me more upset.

right-o!

so things are good. reaaally fuckin good.

hate to say it, but im almost fuckin glad i ran over that curb, so i had to get a job, because i fucking love my job. call me goddamn lame, but i actually enjoy being there. all my co-workers are really cool and im already getting to know people a whole lot better. making new friends and whatnot, yeesss. new experiences! new newnenwenw! mmmmmmm.

and hanging out with new people. double yes. fuck, i love summer.


LATER:
i feel so weird. i feel absolutely numb. like i'm not thinking at all, or thinking way too much to the point where i cant discern thought from thought. totally complacent and mellow. surrounded in the bliss that only shows up at 3:25 in the morning.

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i am
a) addicted to the computer
b) bored
c) lonely
d) without a life
e) ALL OF THE ABOVE!


quick, everyone! name the song that best fits your mood this very moment!

i got a job today. at the movies.
woohooo. everyone seems nice and it looks pretty easy, so yes. sweet.

this might take away from some of my good times, but oh well. my dad woke me up this morning by putting the car bill for over 200$ on my face.

"good morning!"
"get a job"

so i did. blast.

on the bright side, eventually i might have some money of my own.

so, today clint and i were coming out of hastings and i made a left. i thought it was okay to make a left, since the person coming in the lane had her signal on like she was going to turn right. she didnt, and i cut her off, so she honked. being concerned with that, i ran over the median going like 30, knocked off (and tore) the hubcap and got a flat tire.

it sucked.
alot.
i hate cars and i hate driving, my friends.

and now i have to get a job very soon or i'll be fuuuucked.
JOB! PLEASE! NOW! GIVE ME ONE!

last night i dreamt i was trapped in a 1920's style household/camp/thing. we were trapped in the house unless the wardens let us out at night to do chores and whatnot, but me and paige snuck out at night.

we were wearing matching pink dresses with huuuuuuge skirts. i remember seeing paige run off into the woods holding her big skirt. and i put a black tshirt on over mine and some boy said "you wear that black shirt very well, dahling" and POOF! we were in the MHS gym but all of my webb friends were there and all i remember is cavorting around the bleachers talking to people in my big swishy dress.

and then i remember being in hastings and buying a book for 26 dollars from alex savage but his hair was REALLY huge. and he laughed at my dress and i didnt think i had 26 dollars so i tried to bargain with him but it turned out one of the one dollar bills was a five.

alex wrapped up the book in blue tissue paper and put a free charm bracelet (?) around it for me and i remember thinking "ohgod, kates gonna be mad if she sees how this books wrapped!"

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